Be Her Now

Part 1

What I wanted to wear today was sweats.

The her I want to be gets ready for the day.

What I felt like doing was throwing in towel on what’s required of me today. 

The her I want to be does what she can with what she has and trusts God for the rest. 

What I wanted to do was skip my shake and just keep pouring coffee.

The her I want to be prioritizes her and her family’s health. 

What I wanted to do today was sit and hide in shame like a victim.

The her I want to be steps into the grace of God with authority for who she is in Christ. 

The her I want to be does it all while discomfort exists because she is no longer concerned with comfort but bending towards the will of God. 

Serving not striving to be her now. 

Part 2

What I wanted to do was achieve success perfectly without failing.

The her I want to be takes such big leaps of faith, that she fails regularly.

What I wanted to do was quit and hide in shame when I failed.

The her I want to be keeps going and does not let the shame of failure hold her back.

What I wanted to do was believe the lie that my passion for my purpose was selfish.

The her I want to be understands that her passion for her purpose is not just about or for her, that passion is to serve the kingdom of God.

What I wanted to do was stay comfortable.

The her I want to be uses discomfort as a marker that she is on the right path.

What I wanted to do was stay in judgement of everything that was different.

The her I want to be recognizes all judgement as fear and pushes past it to embrace change.

What I wanted to do was sit in my hurt and be the victim.

The her I want to be recognizes hurt and takes it to Jesus, knowing that in this fallen word, in relationship with imperfect humans, we will hurt each other.

What I wanted to do was do everything on my own outside of Christ.

The her I want to be keeps her eyes fixed on Jesus and and stays under His authority.

Serving not striving, to be her now.

Inspired by Kim Fitzpatrick

Written by Heather Lapier