Overcoming Insecurities

Last week I had the opportunity to chat on Instagram LIVE on the Dear Me Womanhood page with Mallory about an insecurity I struggle with from time to time.

Sometimes my worldly worth and title make me feel less than in the company of some people.

I assure you this is not the company I keep making me feel bad and I recognize the negative thoughts that flood my mind sometimes are not truth but this is a battle I still fight.

I have learned that when I put my value and worth in things of the world and rest my hope in them to make me feel as though I am valuable and important, I will always come up feeling like I don’t measure up. A recent experience that has helped me realize this has to do with my home. Tyler and I have lived in our home for many years and Tyler has renovated everything, we are almost to the point where he has worked his carpentry skills on every space of our home. When we first moved into our home, I used to tell myself, “once xyz is done I will host more dinners and I will just feel more comfortable in our home”. We are just one year done with our kitchen renovation and finishing work still needs to be completed and the moment I found out I was pregnant, I started thinking we needed a bigger home. I almost allowed my need for a new bigger home, to steal the joy and excitement of being pregnant. We don’t need a bigger home to love another child and make them feel welcome in our family, that was just a lie the enemy tried to tell me to make me feel inadequate in my motherhood role and take my joy from this abundant new blessing.

Through reading the Bible and learning about Gods character and what His voice sounds like, I have also learned how to recognize the voice of the enemy, who comes only to steal, kill and destroy. When I remember that what he whispers is only lies, it becomes a little easier to fight those negative voices in my mind.

I want to be super clear, fighting lies, walking by faith and trusting God is not easy, it challenges me in many different ways. But, like all of life’s challenges it also strengthens me. And, the more faith battles we fight, the more bold we become in our faith walk. Praise God for that growth!

Jeremiah 29:11 for I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you plans to give you a hope and a future.

This verse gives me so much encouragement. 1. God has a good plan for me so even though I don’t understand everything going on, I know He is at work writing my story. 2. He will give me prosperity but it might not be the bank account prosperity. God has blessed me with so much time with my family, my joy overflows for that, what a gift. He put the seed in my heart 6 years ago for that, before I knew it was even what I wanted. 3. There is hope in it all and maybe all of what we walk through isn’t always about us. If we can walk with grace alongside God we point others to Him and that is the long game goal anyways.

Recognize the lies for what they are, lies, trying to knock you out of what you were actually designed to do. I also heard something in a sermon once that was very encouraging to me. The enemy attacks what he is threatened by and the closer we get to our God callings, the bolder his attacks will get. So, I like to almost look at those insecurity attacks as guides, letting me know I am on the right path, doing Gods good work. Walk in faith and be bold!

xoxo

Audrey