How The Coronavirus Has Already Changed Me

We will get through this together and we will be stronger and different because of it. There are some changes that are happening in me already and I am grateful for the wake up call and disappointed it took a pandemic to realize. Here are some things that are changing within me.

I realized I waste a lot of food. Sometimes if I have eaten something two or three times and there is one portion left, I will throw it away and make something new just because I don’t feel like eating it again. I have become even more aware of how precious food is and will be eating everything from now on. I currently look at my food supply with a strategic mindset, what will go bad fastest, I should eat that first. I am not telling you this to cause panic, I am telling you this because its just how I am thinking in a respect to the blessing of food.

I have become so aware that I need interaction with others to thrive and feel connected. Strolling down the street, it made my heart happy to yell at our neighbours from across the road but there was a little tinge of sadness inside me that longed for walking up those driveways and getting physically close to others.

I am trying to see the bright side to everything that is going on and there is so much light but I am also aware of my sad emotions too.

I am grateful for the slow and the together. I have found that boredom often leads to creativity, when I have space and time for the nothing, really cool things can happen. I am grateful for my cozy home, my family to spend time with, technology to connect us in the distance and our health.

In the slow of my first maternity leave, as I adjusted to my new normal of productivity, which used to be checking off the email to do list, then turned into watching Real Housewives and holding a newborn, I realized my worth was not found in how many items were checked off the do list. My worth was not found in how many things I could accomplish in one day, my worth was not found in my title, my worth was often found in being there.

So right now, I am here and my family of four is blessed to all be together under one roof so thank you Lord for that. Yesterday we did a lot of things, we partied until 10pm and today we have watched a lot of TV. If you like to plan your days and stay productive and that makes you feel good, then go after it. If you enjoy watching TV and hanging on social media, enjoy that. Whatever this season is for you, a mix of whatever, I hope you can enjoy it.

I do my best to offer my days to the Lord and through that I find purpose, not perfection but purpose.

Have you experienced any personal changes in the way you thought about daily life before Coronavirus? I would love to hear your thoughts.

xoxo

Audrey